:( / :)

im now contemplating on a change of job.
well to be frank ,a change of future.
first whether to decide that i would be happy to be permanently placed in skudai.
leaving everything over here.
and not to putting much hope on the possibility of getting transferred to kl.
sigh.
or looking on the bright side of it, it's a real golden opportunity
blablablablablaaa
god pls help me!!

April & Dany

* late post

Sister Evelyn has delivered a baby boy on Wednesday April 4, 2007 at 10.30am

specialist ward, hukm

big hugs to evelyn & dany ashraff!

mum

edry,mum,dany,evelyn.

AaAaprilll!

Pingu and foxy kena april fool.haha

padan muke sbb suke gigit and curi my keropok!

april, pls be nice to me

i was so so exhausted last month

i will be definitely taking leave this month!

yeah

barbie lover?-so not me.

Barbie Lover-So not me?

hey we went to this erm toys warehouse sale at this pj building
initial plan to ermm spend some money for something nice for the kiddos
well i succeeded doing so for 3 cute toys
but the thing is i bought one barbie for myself
god, it was very tempting the minute i saw it
it's this lindsay lohan so called barbie edition
or whatever the barbie collection they called it
well frankly im not a barbie collector
nor its admirer
but i love this one
i was contemplating hard on buying it or not
i asked hun whether i should buy it or not
coz i just couldnt put it down
hun said okay if thats what i really want
and if that will make me happy
(thats why i laf him)



the thing is now that i like it so much in its box
so much that i decided not to open it
and just let it be that way
i removed my stacks of books on the white shelf
making some space for the so-called lindsay
and yeah
i like it that way
/at least for now that i like lindsay
well, i can always give to arissa
when i want to
when i think seeing it everyday doesnt make me happy anymore

Cuppacakes Show

second cuppacakes show

twas pretty awesome.we designed our own cuppacakes.

but they were horrible.haha.

still we enjoyed ourselves.looking forward for the third one.

will definitely order the yummy cuppacakes soon!

*we were hesitated to take any;

first -coz they were awesome,

second- coz nobody made the first move :)

*own designs- mine & his (we're not handicapped, are we?)

*and the people

owh okay. i forgot to capture the crowd.

+ 3

3 years and counting..

<3

1st monday off

today i have finally took the first monday leave for 2007
pingu my cat woke me up around 6.50am not with its usual snoring or some scratches on my nose
but some bites to my arm which I believe he would fondly describe as lovely morning bites
at first i just ignored him but i began to get increasingly irritated at him happily biting my hand!
i got him out of the window to walk off the distractions
and tried to get back to sleep
and hurrah i couldnt fall back to my cloud-heaven!
then i realised that i had my usual sickness
had my pills and decided to call off my monday
despite not feeling well for the day i actually had the day plan laid out
i went to the drug store to buy newspaper and purple vitagen
mum asked me to go to avenue k to pick up some papers from sista evelyn
sigh i do not need a rest cure but i surely in need of a peaceful afternoon on my bed

anyway, enough for monday.the more i think of it the more irritated i am.
updates: i bought a plant with small red flowers in a yellow pot on saturday.i know it's kinda too much for a start.but i just love the colour combination. i bought the plant (the name is Pretty) as a present for myself to get started with 2007.i will post the the photo once i have brought back my digicam.

happy working people!

way to go 2007

[aimless planning and worthless effort]

new goals:

Goal no.1 : to stop being a shopaholic

1. spend some time watching world news so i can see how the needy desperately searching for money while i on the other hand am happily spending every penny lavishly
2. start counting my tees and other garments
3. give 2003 clothes + 2002 flip-flops @pumps to sister's helper
4. stop buying bags and stop giving excuses why i need to buy them (exception for self reward thingy

tips:-clear some space for new bags and clothes and shoes and some little things. take some time to fill up the space. no hurry.coz there's always isetan sale and other anniversary sale.times warehouse sale.haha.and also aussino and roxy birthday discount.and mbank card special discounts.birthday specials.blablabla.and other 1001 special privileges.damnit , im supposed to be very demotivated to shop.sigh.ok, i know: read more sophie kinsella's shopaholics.

Goal no.2 : to decrease the sleeping hours and to wake up early

1. try to be intolarable with sleeping.
2. try to make yourself clear of the cons of excessive sleeping hours
3. try to identify those unwarranted sleeping requests
4. try also to read more books on how people manage to crawl out of bed before 7
5. try thinking of at least 10 good reasons why people love waking up early
6. try to analyze the meaning and the application of the word 'rise &shine'
7. just try to wake up early, please try

Goal n0.3 : to stay normal on monday @ (or to be accurate:) to go to work

1. try not to be so cranky on monday morning.
2. try to avoid seeing some monkeys on monday morning
3. try to take breakfast for every monday
4. try to do interesting stuff on that day say for instance scrapbooking
5. try not to ever think of seeing doctor on monday
6. try to treat monday as nice as you treat friday
7. try to assume monday is always your payday
8. where can i find flea market on monday?

Goal no.4: to get started

1. just try not to bring this goals again to jan 2008

p/s: actually what am i doing? aim to plan or plan to aim?

private luncheon

held this small makan-makan at my place last sunny sunday.
just invited bunches of close frens which made group of um classmates, faris girls,
hun's buddies (mine too),and also one my chilhood bestfren.
some were not able to make it.fine with me coz they didnt spare me lame excuses.
anyway, i have to say that i needed skeleton hands.entertaining different groups was not easy.
one instance, my fren ina.she came alone with her hubby.so their coverage of gossiping and chit-chatting was limited.
had no choice but to spend more time with them.thankfully,others could blend really well.
still confused how ben seems like be acquainted with ash before this.
but still i have to say that it was a great afternoon. certainly not a grand one but a real heart-warming one to me.
hope everyone had a great time and may this be a good start for all of us.
amin.

TODAY

woke up after a very tiring yet fun bbq nite
did some chores
had light breakfast
drove mum to nanny's
went back home
went out for date
hun drove to pj
picked up gmy
had kuey tiaw kungfu at santai
spent chatting there for almost 1 and a half hour
headed to amcorp mall
walked into every bookstore that looked inviting
bought a story book each for self and hun
spent some time walking at flea market
drove to a&w
had root beer n onion ring
wrong order
should hav curly onions
after an hour laughing and babbling hun drove home
dropped by to send gmy
arrived home
tired
was so eager to explore save karyn
found it so interesting
stopped at page fourty
go online for a while
will have late dinner
and iron some outfits

10:47 pm

:: but im just too lazy to stand up.sigh.

boring me

10 things in my wishlist:
1-guess bags (luggage, coin purse n new h/bag ;))
2-black honda jazz
3-that big garfield behind the glass door of gsc ou
4-burberry glasses
5-new leather roxy belt
6-pink couldroy jacket
7-new black out curtain
8-new heels and shoes
9-mini hi-fi
10-built-in closet

9 things listed in my shopping list:
1-potato chips
2-HL milk
3-colour papers
4-haw flakes
5-cosmo mag
6-blacky's sc diet
7-orange petals
8-loreal's facial wash
9-striped table mate

8 things that i keep in my bag
1-purse
2-hp
3-card holder
4-lip gloss
5-keys
6-coin bag
7-tdrive
8-lanyard

7 things in my room
1- white and brown shelves
2-ballerina door mat
3-ikea greenish deck-chair
4-antique alarm clock
5-single cozy striped quilt
6-brown closet
7-flowers for graduation and val's day <3

6 things that i do everyday
1-check myself out
2-hug blacky, pingu and foxy
3-drive and travel
4-sms and call
5-watch tv
6-drink earl grey.a must!

5 things that i did last week
1-watched lucky num slevin
2-went to body jam class
3-bought new shoes
4-gave hun shirt
5-visited show unit for shop lot

4 things that amaze me most:
1-people with tricky questions
2-gentleman
3-dicipline ppl with scheduled meals
4-organized ppl

3 things that i am waiting for:
1-5.45 pm
2-my birthday
3-me in another 2 years

2 things that i want most rite now:
1-sleep on my bed
2-my teddy back

1 thing that call my day:
surprise!!

ode to 2005 :: a warm welcome to 2006

2006, finally we meet in reality.im not sure whether i am prepared to meet u.

but i think i'd probably have no accurate reason on what i should be prepared for?

well.. whatever it is. life moves on. i left 2005 in a silent relief.

2005 has both marked my days with so many red and black marks. i stumbled onto so may holes and also closures. sumtimes, they are the tightly zipped ones. when i looked back at myself in 2005.. i see both sweet and bitter memories..

2005.

your jan saw me struggling with studies. it was a very hard time. i sumtimes lost grip of myself.

i faced countless fears, tears and misery most of my breathing time. i went tru all of it with a good company of my soul and my inner patience. finally, it was april. and i started my internship. it was my first so-called working experience. i made new friends. and the friendship is still intact. i was offered for a stable job there. i refused politely. and i had my own reason for that. in a blink of eye, i finally graduated in mid august. unbelivably true. on that day too, i received a big suprise ever in my life. it was awesome. it was totally perfect and even until today i become speechless when i think of it. i remembered my tears on that glorious day. i was so happy, grateful, touched, sad and of course thankful. for the first time ever, i felt that all my efforts, tears, misery worth the outcome. * pause. things went so right where i finally started my real first job in september. welcome to the professional world. it was a marvellous reception from new collegues. i started well. in fact i began to love my career. everything was flawless. i started to hav my own working checklist. i was always eager for tomorrow.

october approached me happily.my bro and his family flew all the way from manchester to msia again. again, it was the moment that every single member of the family was waiting for. we were together back again. one beautiful month with the whole family was awesome.we celebrated eid mubarak. we were happy indeed. and my career life moves on. i treated a special dinner for the family. it was a celebration for my first-job cum my convo dinner.we laughed all night. it was beautiful.we were so much in love. bro and family then went back there. i was extremely sad and lonely. i moved on wif my career.as usual. i started feeling a lil bit uncomfortable. i saw myself being uh so-not me. did i really hav to do it tho i kno from the first glance that it was just not right for me? i realised i was a beginner. i was not even average. i was so naive. so i moved on. i was still walking yet i was so confused. of my self.oh of everything.my brain started complaining of the work burden that i kept on adding every day. and why they were disorderly distributed to everyone? my heart started complaining of the hell new me. tolerance and patience accompanied me a lot. i started complaining about things at work. to myself. and to close ppl around me. but i still moved on. again, i faced difficulties. i fell, i got up, and i started walking again. the environment, attitude and ethique were just so contrary to me. i was depressed. i really was. the work loads kept coming in. the management of work and comunication btwen the team members were horrible.oh did i mention team? well actually there was no we're-a-team or whatsoever. there's only a superior giving tasks out of sudden with no proper guidance and sufficient information.and he expected me to just do it. does he think that im a typical girl that will commence what i've been ordered to without i actually been properly informed what the hell i was doing? hell no. please work professionally.give task to others with a sufficient intro and subject.dont simply expect ppl to do their work in a way of learning nil?they were working in a wrong way. my tolerance and patience strangled me. ouch.this place just didnt belong to me. i just couldnt do this. i started to realise sumthing. i wasnt improvised. in fact, i saw a spoilt me. i couldnt go on anymore. i couldnt see myself there in another 3 years. sigh. it was so sad. bad coincidence happened. i felt pity of myself. i really do. at the same time i was stronger than before. because i had my confidence back. he was there for me.thank you hun. the working problems and everything lasted on until the very last month of 2005. there, the rainbow finally shone out. better offer awaited me. i couldnt be thankful enuf for that. i had a deep thought and after a fair consideration on everything.. i finally decided to see myself in my new career. i tendered my resignation 2 weeks earlier than the day i should get started with the new job. just to relax and well it's kinda soul searching actually. i wanna start fresh, vibrant and perfectly prepared. and now.. im having my holidays.. until 15th jan. then i want to start my new job as it is the first working day for me.ever.

sigh.God is fair to me. i experienced so many ups and downs in 2005.i dont regret for what has happened to me because if it's not because of the mistake and yeah, fate that had happened.. maybe i wont be smiling as i am today. well.. actually all these years i am very much circled by sweet and perfect ppl. ppl who i can deal with, i can count on and most importantly ppl who loves me just as much as i love them. Well the bitter days of 2005 must have their reason for emerging in my life. they i believe, want me to learn something new. and want me to think in a positive side. well .. it didnt end that bad actually. i see new opportunity for my future.and most important of all.. i see an opportunity for me to improvise and to not just stay on the same spot. i really have to get up and be more realistic.

and 2005, i really have to thank you for the ultimate sweet days of yours.the happiness that you gave me keeps me alive and made me sane. God always knows what he's doing and planning on me. he knows what's best for me.. for my future and of course for others around me...even if i dont see it yet.again, 2005. thank you for a very " ..........." year.mind you that the very last day of you was a very special day for me and my other half :). thank you for linking me up to 2006.im sure that im gonna miss you soon.

and 2006, i really want to start fresh.like really FRESH. and i hope you 'll be nice to
me.please.will ya? :)

rest my case,

lyn.