adieu

Last Friday the 11^th , my fren Ash held a surprise farewell dinner for my other dear friend, Nuyu. Ash was a colleague of mine at Petrosains while Nuyu and I are good buddies since we were in Faris and subsequently UM. We are of good terms tho we hardly hang out since she was most of the time not in the country. Well, I was actually the matchmaker for them but sadly now they are just close friends :( huhu

So, Nuyu is flying to Dubai for a better job opening and gonna catch her midnight flight today.We really had a great time at Luna Bar that night. Thanks Ash for the scrumptious food and of course the super nice view from the 34th F. I really love the outdoor lounge... a really nice place to chill out.

To Ash: thanks for the superb dinner..well it was of hefty price anyway kan.u’re so sweet :)

Nuyu: Babe, I wish you all the best and take good care of yourself .keep in touch k. Love you, cookie

You guys are compatibly perfect.I’ll pray that things will work out in the future. Go with the flow :)

Prescription, pls

It’s 1.30 pm . Abah just left for Friday prayer. Mum’s on her cell. Danny's sleeping. So are the cats.And I'm at my study struggling for a definite idea or rather, plan.

I have to deal with the serious datelines and dozens of must-do stuff.Therefore, I am seriously in need of a good schedule. I’d rather say timetable ,that sounds old school.

Of headaches

1.Current research supervisor’s off to Liverpool by end of this month. I need to submit the amended and full revised of the earlier proposal 10 days preceding his departure to facilitate some arrangement for the new supervisor. Which means that I literally have about one week to finish that. And yes, I am on page 1.

2. I need to at least get two articles published. Aha.

3. I need to get the presentation on my title & stuff done by middle February or March

4. I need to make some preps for the next pursuant of studies by June 08 for 09 slot. It looks way ahead of time but trust me of all the past hassles, I really need to get going.-Thus, new proposals, selections, and some new points for CV on which point no.2 would be much of a help.

5. And of course, to read zillions of academic books and journalsssssss argh

Duh

So let's figure some pills

The Pills

1. Foremost and challenging step: To gradually reduce my time spending on novels. I need to get going with the palm-thick books

2. Need to have a fixed timetable for my reading or for a start, let’s spend 5-8 hrs for that per day


3. Check out cool academic websites


4. Library trip at least once a week


5. Fortnightly Borders Trip *winkwink JavaChips


6. For God's sake, it's only a year. Will u just concentrate?

One at a time, lyn.Come on.

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On other happy note, I wanna wish my dear girlfriend Jane a Happy Birthday!Have a blast girl!

I found this very old school photo of us, taken on the very last day of SPM.that was like 8years ago.hihi. I really missed everyone

the birthday girl's on 2nd row, three from right
moi first row, same count :)

self-tutoring

i am on page 42 of The Mind Gym book. the book is by far one of the most logic and convincing one on self advancement that i've ever read. the fonts and contents arrangements are fabulously neat and approachable.sorry, huge prejudice against big + ugly fonts and styles.heh.

anyway, had this mini quiz on "What Am I"?
Options are: A) Planned Person B) Spontaneous Person

Ehem so I am of the first one.What's with the quizzical look? It's (1/2) true, ok?
Well the truth is I scored 5 points of A type and 3 points of B type, so it's like i'm moving between the two styles and my preference is the A one. Never mind on that, what I'm trying to picture is that I as a Planned person (yea rite) unfortunately do have some problems dealing with my so-called plans i.e changes, expectations, uncertainty and blah blah, OR a motto if I may give one; "I love plans & I loathe distractions or interruptions". I am fine with minor unpredictable things but I'm totally not fine with changes that were purposely done or of zero effort.Even being a quarter Spontaneous that I am just cannot deal with such intolerable situations.

So I've figured some quick fixes for me the harrased Planner viz:

1) When faced with a change of plan, I will try to welcome it rather than fight it
2) When making a plan, I will think of it as emm a relatively loose collection of activities that may well change for the better
3) I just have to let go of the worry caused by my running late. There's nothing I can do about it. Just avoid it in future
4) Just relax. Some of the best deals are last minute. Yeah rite.

Okay now, just breathe.

04.01

Okay, today's To Do List;

Friday 4th Jan 08

1.Birthday Call Sis In Law
2.Collect some photocopies at Advanco
3.Send sum stuff to Cash Converter
4.Read books
5.Pay Credit Card
6.Call Soroi

hey 08

Ahem I’m blogging with a new back to school ambience.So I finally had my study table+ chair! Yeay me.hehe. Been yearning for a white table top and a yeah-why-not red chair since like forever.But, It seemed like Ikea’s been selling the whole stock off to zillion other people.Like duh?!Not only these particular things but most of the items that I intended to buy! Am I the only one not getting the year end bonus? Oh please.

Anyway, I opted for a beige computer table and a chair of the same hue instead. That’s the only size of the table that can fit in my room as Im having a serious space constraint prob. The undecided colour theme finally went for RED. It's surprisingly very niceee. So everything’s practically of red (and ok, the same group of similar hues); the table lamp, laptop mat, hp holder and .. oh well I’ll manage to get sum more in a few days.hehe. Hence, Red is the opening colour for this year. I am happy to regard it as a sign that I SHOULD buy the Red Edition Nano this year.hihi. I loike my new stuff!yeay

How's that for a start?

Now that it’s 08, I wish that I’m blessed with more love from Allah.
I have some hopes and goals that I will try to reach for.
And;
I pray that this year will be the year.

BB

Dec 31, 07

The other half’s birthday is toooodaaayyy! Wehee :) We started early today, went to settle some registration thingy and went hunting for my back-to-school-stuff shopping.well, I need some boosters , ok.and fresh ones.

Anyways, we didn’t really plan for anything today , just spending some time together. I planned to try Palette Palette out for lunch but it was closed for new year’s party or sumthing. Since we were so so starving, (I actually felt like haven’t eaten for days) we went to KLCC the nearest place and tadaa.. Nando's. Hun initially opted for Fish Market coz he had some craves for fish on our way from BB to KLCC, but changed in an instant once he saw Nando's.hehe.

Oh yeah I gave hun an oscar for the birthday token and he insisted for its original name. Something to surprise his morning coz the present was given way too early. hehe

Guess today’s pretty much about my stuff hehe. It sounds like my birthday now.hehe

Happy Birthday Love.You know I heart you :)

Sad at every turn

I am (truly) disappointed

• When they did not care to ask
• When they refused to listen
• When they did not try to understand
• When they chose to blame my every turn

such (mind) norms.

happy cat

Today’s Christmas Day. Such a quiet day. Lazed around till noon and headed to catch some books from Times Year End Clearance. I left home around 2 and stopped at this huge park between my place and Kepong (where I always plan to bring Edry for some kite flyings someday) and had a delicious pasta (I cooked it for Brunch, see that’s why it delicious.hehe).

We arrived PJ around 2.30pm and immediately had our heads buried in like hundreds or maybe thousand of books. And all come in a great many varieties. Loving it. After almost 2hours getting our neck strained, I paid for 2 novels;- The Jane Austin Book Club and The Tea House on Mulberry Street (vouch u they're for adults!), a First-Thingy Toodler book for Edry, 2 Australian HB Mags and 2 other novels for Hun. I think I made a really good purchase today which means that Im supposed to read them till the last page! Hehe

Then we just drove off to Sect 14 and stopped to buy some cute lil set of hair pins and stuff for Arissa’s bday. Not really a pressie just something to attach with the bday card. We spent the next 40 mins sipping our drinks at Starbucks before driving back home. Oh for that 08 Planner won't think be able to collect the whole coupons. Gonna pass on that.

It was such a good weather throughout my outing and I just loved the drizzles that accompanied me to my gate. And me and hun just love spending our days like this, quality time for quality things.

I just love being away from the city chaos. Oh btw, the traffic headed to The Curve was so chaotic this afternoon. Thank God we went the opposite way

And last but not least, a merry Birthday Shout goes to my ever bubbly Arissa . Happy Birthday Love!Miss u
Mwah mwah

She just loves pushing her cheek on mine

rainy mind

I read this yesterday:

"Things which take the most work, and cause the most amount of stress, are those of which you are ultimately proud, love and appreciate most" -AUHB

Cant say much, yet to finish a real tough one :(
( I so wish it's true)

sweet people

received LOTSA wedding invitations and cards this month
mostly from my friends of the same age either from Faris or UM
sadly i'm unable to attend all of them since they hold them in either Terengganu or Kelantan and also coz some share the same date which I think the most fav so far- Dec 22.
anyway, i made 2 reply cards for my ex-schoolmates Ika and also J-ty for their weddings which fall on exactly the fav-date-of-the-year.hehe. I'm touched by their effort to send me those wedding invitation cards regardless of the fact that we are not that close as emm..7 years back (frankly even during those days) and the extra effort taken to find my address, post and everything.
































It may sound easy but not many ppl want to do that whatmore there's a big possibility that I wont be able to come (yes,coz it's far and my parents, remember?). Instead, they can also call or sms -you know it's a lot less hassle than sending cards , and think of doing the same thing for other ppl which I presume at least more than 100 is kinda crazy, right? So I really appreciate their remembrance and sincerity.. I wish I had more money to send some presents but heehe sorry I can only afford cards. They're pretty simple cz Im running out of materials (and time) .So there you go I'll post them tomorrow morning on my way to medical check-up !

Hooray for friendship and sweet people :)

The Day When I Spelt Happiness

(loud hooray by bearbrick)

Alhamdulillah thank you Allah
I got 8 for my IELTS and passed the scholarship requirement :)
Too bad I cant opt overseas slot
But I guess that’s the best option
For that’s what given by God
I've vowed to give some fruits to the mosque in my neighbourhood if I pass and so,I've decided on bananas

I waited for 07 Dec like I never did for those past results days
I cried last night..I dreamt of getting two points- 5.01 and 3.45 which were not good coz the highest is 9. The former one is kinda funny coz it shows how much I was thinking about the passing band of 5.0 for the scholarship thingy while the latter one is just weird, never heard such marks which also meant that I have to re-sit the test
Bad scaryyyyyy dreams

Syukur syukur..Now I have to go for the boring Medical Check-up , X-ray and so on
Hope things will go smoothly
Please Plish Plish
Amin(No, not when collecting results instead for abah's birthday lunch last week)

OK, Now I am well and truly sane.
At least for now

And hun, u have such an outstanding level of patience
U passed my test!hehe

need help?me!

Grr.. I am so frustrated with both yahoomail and the blogger.or is my trusty speed dial connection messing up with me? (lame, I know.I used to have free speedy connection at work before I emm quit)I don’t really know.urghh.It’s forever declining my access.i hate it when I was really in the mood to rant or ramble on sumthing but I couldn’t post it, and even worse the system was frequently unable to log me on!Lucky it's working tonite.

I have IELTS test coming up this Saturday starting from 8 am until around 3 pm.I am very nervous about the test taking place, my marks and most importantly whether I achieve the passing grade for my scholar or not. God, this thing is driving me crazy! Believe me, I became neurotic about sitting the test and all those related petty things.sigh.Sometimes, I myself wonder why the hell am I SO FREAKING OUT?And I figured out these excuses:

1. The last exam that I sat for was 2 years back.well now that it’s almost 2008 make it 3.

2.I got confused with my studying schedule. I used to stay up till wee hours say 5 am and slept randomly. That was how my brain worked, at least that’s what I thought. But it’s not working for me now that I am at home.

3. I learnt best in other subject’s class viz. solving maths in law class.And I have zero choice coz there’s only a subject

4. Sitting and studying facing window, looking at the green field with scattered water pondings during the rainy days was indescribably soothing. That’s the best study spot ever. Miss u, 1^st RC! Yup, not my current place!

5.Figuring out this thing is like loading more bullets in my head.full stop.

Above all those excuses, the real and most important thing is I fear that I fail and screw up everything. If I didn’t pass the grade I will regret it for as long as I live. I’ve quit job, left my position, declined the other scholar, was and still depressed, confused and gave up so much more to get this. I am just an inch away yet I feel so distant. I am too confused that I just can’t focus.What if I flunk?Isnt that pathetic enough?

Well, I did a lot of revisions and test specimens.I bought the book soonest as I got the exam date. I surfed a few help-me websites, downloaded plenty of the tips. I am the most loyal fan of border’s starbucks. I was there every weekends..studying and trying to understand my inside. I think I’m doing fine with the mock test, tutorial, exam whatever. But not with my emotion and self confidence.Oh, this is not helping.

I don’t want to get depressed coz If I do, I will definitely screw up everything.

God, I don’t know what else to do. Maybe I just need a real decent night’s sleep.

Don’t give me bad dreams and pls let me restore my own faith tomorrow

I love you God.